Sunday, March 13, 2011

Colten Mitchell

Well, I suppose I will start at the beginning. Not the very beginning, mind you, but as far as recent events, the beginning. Wednesday March 9th was a very long day for me. I was nervous about being induced the next day and my mind was constantly thinking of all I needed to get done, and yet didn't feel like doing. i didn't feel well most of the day and just wanted to lay in bed, but I wanted to do something fun with Derek and Braden as well. I felt like I needed to go to the bathroom but couldn't and was worried about that slowing down my labor the next day. (Little did I know that the slowing of labor would be something I did not have to worry about at all. Derek and I got most of our stuff together for the hospital that night as we had to be there at 4 am on the 10th. We finally crawled in bed at about 11:30 pm. I was awoken from a dead sleep almost exactly 2 hours later with strong painful contractions. As first I tried to go to the bathroom thinking it was just bad gas. Then I had Derek time the pains. Yup definitely contractions. at one and a half minutes apart. So Derek and I grabbed the rest of our stuff quickly and headed to the hospital. but the time we got to the hospital (about a 10 minute car ride) I was having a hard time. But knew sitting was the last thing i wanted to do. I wanted to walk to L&D. A wheel chair sounded like a horrible idea. The nurses got me to a bed quickly and informed me I was about 5 cm. I remember hoping they hurried with the epidural. After I was checked the pain became so very intense that i couldn't escape from it. Nothing I did distracted me from it and i couldn't focus on my breathing. In a matter of about 30 minutes, the guy came into give me the epidural, the lab work was delayed, I apparently ripped out my IV in a convulsion during a contraction, and finally I had to sit really still while the guy started the epi. I remember feeling the need to push and was checked again. 8 cm. At this point the doctor was called and I was pleading with the epidural guy to hurry, but I was pretty sure I was going to have to do this without. Then my body started pushing without my permission. I was having to sit still with needles going into my back and could feel my baby crowning. At this point i wanted to scream forget it and to let me lay down. I made involuntary noises when my body involuntarily pushed, but I remember that pushing felt like a relief. Finally the guy finished taping up my epidural catheter and stepped away. I lay on my side and my body went into a push again that I tried to keep at bay but could not. Then, I felt my son being born. I won't gross you out, but it was one quick push and he was laying on the bed, crying. The Nurse standing next to me said, "Well, Happy Birthday." And then yelled at the other nurses, "3:45! Boy!" A few minutes later my doctor arrived. Haha! Derek was in such a shock the nurse had to remind him to pull out the camera. I remember relief, the most wonderful feeling of relief ever as I held my newborn Colten. Just an hour after we had arrived at the hospital. I did it... well... my body did. All on its own. Amazingly I made it through the whole thing with out screaming or crying. And the next thing I know we're calling mom's and updating facebook, telling the world that Colten Mitchell had arrive safely... and in a hurry. :) March 10th, 2011 at 3:45 am. 7lbs 8.6 oz. 20.5 inches long. All our prayers were answered.
He was here 15 minutes before I was supposed to arrive at the hospital to be induced.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Deployment

I bet anyone who knew me before the army (especially in college) didn't think I'd fare so well through a deployment. I know I didn't. I fought Derek joining for that very reason. I didn't think I'd survive. I'm not going to lie. It's hard. Everyday brings new challenges and weary emotions, but we make it through. One day at a time.

It's safe to say when I was in college I was sure of very few things. But one of the things I was sure about was Derek. I knew I wanted to be beside him everyday for forever. So at the young and budding age of 21 I walked down the aisle and we were joined in a union blessed by God. We've only been married for 4 years, but I can honestly say that our marriage has endured quite a bit in that short time span. But we faced everything. Together. Never wavering or even questioning the fact that we were supposed to be together. I can say looking back that is was God's blessing that kept us so focused during times when many couples would have given up. Well, God and Derek. He was so patient with me. (must have been God that made him that way.) I knew this fairly early. And clung to Derek for dear life. Certain that I could not survive anything without him.

Then came the Army.

Basic was hard enough, but we knew it was do-able. Though I had my doubts. Then came the news of the impending deployment. The news alone, 7 months ahead of time, I thought might kill me. So i coped the only way I knew how. I ignored it. For 7 months I cringed when someone would bring it up. I decided I would deal with it when the time came. Looking back, that was probably a good decision for me. it allowed me to enjoy the time before the deployment without spending every minute dreading it. The day I said good bye I couldn't ignore it anymore. I can Honestly say it was the worst day of my life. Thinking about the heaviness and sorrow from that day haunt me even now. But then God reminded me that he makes all things new.

That is exactly what he did. I decided I didn't want to spend a year of my life or Braden's life being miserable. And with the recent news that we were going to add another member to the family, I realize I had more to smile about then cry about. I got through one day at a time and watching my tummy grow and Braden discover new things daily kept me up beat. I also knew how lucky I was to have a husband make the time to contact me daily. He's been amazingly wonderful. I could gush about him all day. I realized for probably the first time in my adult life, that there is a bit more to me than the emotional wreck I thought myself to be. I learned that maybe I AM strong. But it was only through my weakness and submission that I was able to find that strength. I have made it very close to 6 months with a smile on my face and joy in my heart. And then every so often, I try to do it on my own. And let's be honest. There are few people that could really handle something like this alone. Today was one of those days. I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. I had no idea how I was going to keep doing this. Braden has been a handful the past few days, and i felt totally disconnected from Derek, even though I chatted with him, which is already more than most get. It didn't take much to get me down. Then I was gently reminded again. I can't do this without Him. I remembered all the good things about deployment. Which was actually my intention of this blog post, to share those. But I suppose I had to set it up. :)

Deployment has strengthened my marriage. Our communication has gotten better. Our appreciation and respect for each other has increased tenfold! And overall i am very grateful to have such an amazing husband. I mean seriously. He's the best!

Deployment has taught me independence. Something I've never really been good at. I was very comfortable admitting that I could not breathe without him by my side. When I was pregnant with Braden i leaned on him for everything. Including helping me put on my shoes. I've gone through the majority of this pregnancy without him. And I'm amazed at myself this time around. Leaning on God to keep me and baby Colten safe during this pregnancy has brought me a peace.

Deployment has taught us to count our blessings. The little moments matter so very much. From cuddles on the couch, to spitty toddler kisses. These moments make it all worth it.

Deployment has brought us a deep appreciation for the veterans before us. Those who served without the luxury of internet and frequent communication. Those who relied on snail mail. And those who ultimately gave all. And for those serving on the front lines currently. (Derek's job requires him to stay on the FOB to maintain equipment) We have a real appreciation for those who have served so selflessly.

Deployment has taught us that there is nothing on this earth more important than our family. Even in the midst of serving the country, he does so to protect and provide for our family. Derek and I do everything we do for our children.

Deployment has given me guts. I'm not afraid to stand up for myself or my children. Something I am very very proud of.

Basically, Deployment has been a good thing for us. Yes. It is hard. And everyday I wish my husband was back in my arms, and I know he wishes the same. But overall we are thankful for our experience, and the God that has provided so much for us along the way. We still have a long way to go, but we will make it, with God guiding us.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Waking...

I've been up for a little over 30 minutes at this point.... Still trying to wake up. Maybe this isn't the best time to "blog" but I'm going to give it a shot anyways.
I CANNOT believe it's time for Thanksgiving already!!!!! What in the world???? T have to admit I'm very very excited about how quickly time is passing. R&R and Baby Colten Mitchell will be here before we all know it!!!! I mean seriously! Christmas is only 34 days away!!! I'm typing quite a few exclamation points here!!! Haha!
I am up early and ready to travel to FL this morning. Not super excited about the new TSA stuff that I have to go through, but I am hoping the media is making it out to be worse than it really is. Only time will tell though I suppose. Braden should have fun riding in the big "airplane" this time. And although it will be a hassle to carry the darn thing, I am grateful he will have his own seat that he can't wiggle out of. So the flight itself will not so stressful... getting back and forth from the terminal though is another story!!! What and the world and I going to do with 2 carry on's a car seat and and kid that won't be still!?!? HAHA! Look out haters I'm breaking out the monkey harness!!!

And I don't care what you have to say about it either!!!

Anyways, thats all for now... time to get moving!!!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Let's try this again

So I've decided to give this blogging thing another try. Not that it matters with my one single follower. Whom I very much appreciate.


So Derek, Braden and I are very excited about little Colten joining us in March. I'm still in shock that we aren't going to be a family of three anymore. Of course it was always the plan to grow our family, and the army has taught us there is never really a good time while in the military to expand your family. God seems to have the perfect timing though! :)
Being pregnant during a deployment is really hard, but at the same time it seems to ease the burden just a bit. It's not as bad as I originally imagined, but then at the same time, I know we are very lucky this time around. Braden keeps me busy and once Colten comes along I will be even busier!
Right now the plan is for Derek to be back for Colten's birth but with the army and him being in a war zone anything can happen. So we are trying not to get our hopes up, but praying Derek get's here safely and that little guy comes when he is supposed to.
Braden and I will be visiting Derek's side of the family in FL for Thanksgiving. I'm glad we decided to go ahead and make the trip. Especially since the doctor doesn't want me traveling anymore after Christmas. It will be good to get down south and enjoy the beach in November. Not many people get to do that!
Braden blossoms a little more everyday and I'm always amazed. He's pretty smart and picks up on things quickly. However he is probably the most stubborn child i have ever been around. He can be very polite and sweet and say please and thank you, and your welcome, as long as it is HIS idea to say these things. If he forgets to say please, and you remind him, look out!!!! It is the end of the world!!! And you can pretty much forget him ever saying it at that point. Wow. He keeps me on my toes. But overall he is a very sweet and cuddly little boy.
Tomorrow Braden turns two! Yesterday I had the ultrasound to let me know that our baby was a Colten! Tomorrow as I celebrate two years since I delivered Braden I will anxiously look forward to the birth of my next little miracle. Derek and I are so thrilled to have another boy for Braden to be best friends with.
despite the trials and hardships of a deployment, Derek and i know we are truly blessed.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Deployment

Welp, It has begun, but we are making it. So far... I'm pretty sure everyone knows already but Derek and I are expecting our second child due mid March 2011. We found out 2 days before Derek left for Afghanistan. I was pretty scared at first, but Derek was excited and I couldn't help but get excited to. Another person that's a little of him and a little of me to love. God has been good to us this week. It's been a very hard week, but I have been able to see proof of Him around me. He has been faithful. Even when I was so dehydrated i passed out and had to be taken to the ER. God was there. I was so glad that everything was ok before Derek ever found out about it. Not that I didn't want to tell him, I just didn't want him to worry. I love him so much. I'm looking forward to march so much! Not only do I get to see his smiling face and hug him tight, but our new little one will be making his or her appearance. 2011 is going to be a great year!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

WOW!

I suppose it's been awhile since I updated. We found out Derek will be deploying at the end of the summer. That was hard news. I think I had been in denial about him being deployed at all. he's excited about it. I'm not. I've decided that Braden and I are going to stay here. We love it here and want Derek to have a home to come back to, instead of staying in hotels or whatever.

Also Braden has been diagnosed with a wheat and barley intolerance. He's too young for it to be diagnosed as an allergy. This has been quite an adjustment, but It's honestly surprised me how easily we adapt when it comes to our kids. I suppose "instinct" takes over and you adjust and do what ya gotta do. I suppose I'll be taking on the same mentality when Derek leaves us for a year.

Well, other than that we love Colorado and are so excited to be here! I love looking out at the mountains everyday! I'll miss it when we have to leave one day. :(

Thursday, January 14, 2010

We've Been Keeping Busy!

Always a lot to do here in Colorado Springs! I love it! We also have a lot to keep us busy around the house. Still having some trouble getting settled but its beginning to feel like home.

I have lots of big plans and idea for the front yard. We have this fabulous tree and a nice porch. I want to get Braden a swing and a couple of Cracker Barrel rocking chairs for Derek and me. (Although, I haven't seen a cracker barrel out here yet... hmmm) There is also this big planter and what looks like a rose bush. I have plans for a little bit of gardening this summer! I want to plant all different colors of gerber daiseys! So excited! And of course... a humming bird feeder! We plan on spending a lot of time outside this coming spring and summer, especially with Braden. We even spent sometime outside today on the porch trying to teach Braden to kick the ball.

We really are enjoying Colorado and getting used to drinking LOTS of water! Love it here. It definitely encourages a more active and outdoorsy lifestyle. Anyways. That's all for now.